Yesterday was full of a-ha moments for me. My first a-ha moment came while I was watching Super Soul Sunday on OWN. The episode focused on three Next Generation Spiritual Thinkers: Mastin Kipp, Maria Forleo and Gabrielle Bernstein. These are three people who have helped awaken and guide me on my spiritual path by reading their blogs or watching their videos. They are all in their 30’s and are sharing their wisdom to invite others to begin your own journey to discover a new definition of life.
One thing that struck me, and actually brought me to tears, was a story that Mastin Kipp told. He talked about the early days of his uber popular blog, The Daily Love. He said that he had one terrible week where his relationship ended, his investors pulled out of his business, his business partner left, he broke his back, found out that he had gout and his roommate gave him 3 days notice to move out. He said that his ex-girlfriend’s parents offered to let him live in their pool house which was 8×8.
He said he was talking to God. He asked, “God, why? You are infinite. Why a room of 8×8?” He said he heard God say, “Because, that’s how big your faith is. But, it’s okay because that is all you need.”
As I thought about how my life has come crumbling down and I find myself living on generosity, I started to cry. There are times that I’ve looked to the heavens and thought, “Why am I here?” My path is about finding the reason and doing the work to understand how I am where I am. And, amazingly, I never thought about my faith. I never thought about how much faith I had in the Universe and/or God to give me what I need. I never thought about equating what I have to my level of faith. But, it makes so much sense.
I have faith and I trust the Universe, but I never thought about the fact that I was keeping it small which is why I was living small. I gave the Universe what I thought I could handle if the Universe couldn’t come through instead of remembering that the Universe is infinite. I realize now that my faith was diminished by the fear of disappointment. I do believe that what I see outside is a reflection of what is going on inside. So, what struck me is that if my surrounding are small that it is because that is all the trust I have put in the Universe.
What I had to learn is that my disappointment has always been in myself. I’ve always felt like I should do more and be more, but now I understand that I have to place my trust in the belief that everything is working in my favor. And, I must expand my faith to match what I believe I deserve in this world. Until those two match, I won’t realize the life that is in store and waiting for me. The same goes for you.
“Sometimes God allows what he hates to accomplish what he loves.” ― Joni Eareckson Tada
Does your faith match your surroundings? Are you holding back your blessings because you are afraid of being disappointed? Can you let the Universe or God be free to work in your life?